I think I will just have to go into that three-week pain management program for my headache. I have resigned myself. I will call them at nine; I think that’s when they open. The pain’s got really bad and just won’t go away. The night before last I was screaming. It’s just like it was in October. I’ve had two Demerol shots this week and the doctor was like, “You again. Always coming back and asking for the same thing.” 50 mg of Demerol doesn’t cut it anymore. I need 75 mg. And of course it doesn’t last.
It’s hard to explain the pain. It’s usually not as extreme as last night — not like “slammed a door on your finger” kind of pain. But it’s bad, and worse, it’s relentless. It NEVER LEAVES. It just taints every thing I do and saps my energy and makes it so hard to concentrate on anything. I often function at half-capacity, or less, because the other half is preoccupied with the Headache.
I really didn’t want to do this pain management thing because it’s so expensive and it’s three weeks long. But it may save time and money in the long run.
I just hope their waiting list isn’t too long.