So I just posted the updates for today — ten new cases, ten updates on existing cases. I’m trying to work my way through the backlog alphabetically and right now I’m on S. I have about 67 cases left to add before I reach Z. I say “about 67” because I’ll probably slip a few more in, and because probably when I get around to looking at the cases already in there it’ll turn out that some have been resolved, or they don’t meet the criteria for Charley, so I won’t add them.
And this just is my “normal cases” folder. I also have folders marked “runaways” and “family abductions.” Runaways only has 9 in it right now, but family abductions has 48 (counting sibling groups separately). I figure I’ll get to those after I to the end of the “normal cases” alphabet. So, 124 cases waiting to be added…before I start right back over again at “normal cases” A.
I don’t hold entirely to the alphabetical thing. Sometimes I get bored with it and just add a few random cases from here or there, or if I find a really exciting one, or sometimes I go and add a whole bunch of ones that are just barely six months old because I realize I fell behind in that regard. (Like, right now, it’s past the middle of the month and I’ve only got two cases up for last December. I need to do something about that.)
In any case, at any given time I’ve got, minimum, 300 cases marked waiting to be posted. With more coming in every day. And as a general rule I don’t have the capacity to add more than ten a day. It’s not a set rule of course; occasionally I add more than ten. Much more often I add less than ten. It’s not even the time factor per se — though putting together ten often takes a few hours, and I do have other things to do. It’s just that by the time I reach ten I’m like, “gah, I just want to get this over with already” and so I stop.
Thus, the pile will just keep growing. I have reconciled myself to the situation because I really do love the work, and because I take pride in the fact that no one else can do it. I have many innate talents and abilities and have squandered most of them, which troubles my conscience a great deal. I don’t want to waste this whole research/ writing/ organizational thing I’ve got too. I willingly embrace the rod. Working on the Charley Project is really one of my most favorite things to do in the world, and I would do it even if it didn’t help anyone, even if no one else knew about it but me.
I’ve got a summer cold or something and I’m feeling pretty miserable right now. I’ve been coughing for days, I can’t sleep and my throat feels like it’s got sand in it. This is the kind of night when I might as well stay up and update, do something productive instead of tossing and turning in bed. So perhaps, for tomorrow, I will write up more than ten cases.